"You know, why plan my future when it's just gonna be a wall of paint crashing down on me?"
--Malcolm from Malcolm in The Middle
In the past couple of days, I went through career doubt. But who knew that a peaceful revelation would come from my likes of watching Malcolm in The Middle! I was sitting in my room last week, thinking about the school year that lies ahead of me. It's Junior year baby--my 2nd to last year before it's time for me to head out into the "real world." I instantly began to panic! I realized that I would need to kick it into high gear and get my profession priorities straight. Ugh, I worry too much. But anyway, I thought about where I'd eventually want work, or what I think may be my dream job. I then pondered some more and realized that to outsiders, I have it all (career wise).
This is when frustration sets in.
You see, someone once called me the poster child for how to set up a career. And a professor actually told me that I should aid and speak to fellow students. Flattering, but pressure much? All I know is that I know what I love and that I'm following the path of my love--seeing where it leads me. So while I got frustrated with the fact that people are already expecting me to succeed (which I confidently know I will), I thought about the "what ifs." After seeing so many of my recent grad friends, who happen to be the same major as me, struggle to find jobs (thanks to the economy & scared-to-hire employers), III got scared. I'm scared that all my experiences will not be enough. I'm scared that my chosen path may be setting me up for failure. I'm just. Plain. Scared. But that's normal, right? To be scared? I think so.
Needless to say, after watching Malcolm in The Middle, I concocted this thought: I am without a doubt passionate about all the things I am doing. I guess I just want to see my future, but I can't. I like to plan things, but I can't... in this case. All I know is, I like to write, edit, blog, eat cupcakes, follow fashion and so much more. Where am I heading? Only time will tell; only time will tell.
Any other scared college kids out there?
xoxo
This is when frustration sets in.
You see, someone once called me the poster child for how to set up a career. And a professor actually told me that I should aid and speak to fellow students. Flattering, but pressure much? All I know is that I know what I love and that I'm following the path of my love--seeing where it leads me. So while I got frustrated with the fact that people are already expecting me to succeed (which I confidently know I will), I thought about the "what ifs." After seeing so many of my recent grad friends, who happen to be the same major as me, struggle to find jobs (thanks to the economy & scared-to-hire employers), III got scared. I'm scared that all my experiences will not be enough. I'm scared that my chosen path may be setting me up for failure. I'm just. Plain. Scared. But that's normal, right? To be scared? I think so.
Needless to say, after watching Malcolm in The Middle, I concocted this thought: I am without a doubt passionate about all the things I am doing. I guess I just want to see my future, but I can't. I like to plan things, but I can't... in this case. All I know is, I like to write, edit, blog, eat cupcakes, follow fashion and so much more. Where am I heading? Only time will tell; only time will tell.
Any other scared college kids out there?
xoxo
I totally know what you mean! Plus, I'm a senior so the real world looms even closer (though I am taking a year break in which the job I get is less important so long as I'm earning my keep and then going to law school... making for a four year delay though one with large loan burdens). Plus, even if one is doing well from the outside, maybe with the internship in hand or whatever, it's still easy to feel overwhelmed.
ReplyDeleteRegardless of the economy, I feel like hiring prospects (and financing one's own life prospects) are naturally always terrifying. Even when one is ultimately confident. It's going to work out! Junior year helped me realize that, because before it I was a lot more freaked than I am now.
i think about it all the time! i see the worried looks on people's faces when I tell them i'm pursuing a career in fashion. but honestly, we both have a huge passion for something and that mixed with a bit of pure luck may be just what it takes :)
ReplyDeleteYeah I know what you mean. I'm in denial still.. I'm worried about it hitting me. My friend actually emailed me today voicing similar concerns as you so I sent her the link. =)
ReplyDeleteAh, how I know what you mean.
ReplyDeleteI'm still a mere sophomore but the pressure's on. We have major exams this year and I cannot for the life of me, stop obsessing.
What line do you want to go into?
I want to do fashion marketing. I scourge the net for internships the entire time, educating myself the rest.
I need to chill.
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Don't be scared, darling! Be confident. You are fabulous and you will find your niche!
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It is hard to figure out what do with one's future. however, you can only do your best and the rest will work itself out. : ) One day at a time is all we can do.
ReplyDeleteScared college kid right here! I worry way too much about the future, even though I'm really trying not to lately. At least you're out there getting experience instead of sitting on your couch.. let that stop the worrying for a little while!
ReplyDeleteLove that you're getting advice and wisdom from Malcolm! I love that show.
ReplyDeleteAw, I totally understand I have those moments too!
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i'm not a huge fan of k chocolate but for baking it's ideal. any day getting free brownies is def. a good day!
ReplyDeleteI'm not in college, but I'm definitely a scared rising high school senior.
ReplyDeleteMy parents suggest med school and a undergrad science major, but I don't know. I've never had the opportunity to try my hand at humanities.
i'm not a huge fan of k chocolate but for baking it's ideal. any day getting free brownies is def. a good day!
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